Wise & Young

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Me & Hip-Hop

I have been writing! Just not writing my blog, while being broke I responded to a Craigslist ad to write articles for an online Hip-Hop magazine. Now, what most of you don’t know is that I have always had a deep love and appreciation for all the elements of Hip-Hop and the artists thereof. So I responded to the ad, sent the guy a link to my blog, so I guess he knows I’m gay, and he put me to work. To date, I’ve interviewed more than a handful of artists all with varying levels of success. Some have been doing guerilla marketing and promotion to get their name out to everyone, and hoping that something will spark their “big break”. Others have had their big break but no one still knows there names, and that they are trying to cement their status into the ranks of contemporary Hip-Hop notables. Then there is another kind, the kind that has enjoyed quiet Hip-Hop success, the type that they can walk down the street and not get noticed, but walk into the studio and all eyes are on them. So far some have been on the dramatic side, others have been so laid back that I wanted to check them for a pulse, others acted as if they had recently had a lobotomy. But none of them have been mean, well at least not yet, all have been gracious understanding the power and influence that writers have to paint you as either the biggest underground hype or the biggest no talent asshole since inception.

I’m thinking of contacting other Hip-Hop magazines, and starting to go to Hip-Hop shows in the DC area and write reviews on them so that I can a wider range of topics within the Hip-Hop world. The next interviewer is going to definitely get questions concerning gays and women in the Hip-Hop industry. Have I found a new hobby, and is there a way of making money doing this? I guess only time will tell.

Below are the links to all the articles that I have written for so far

http://schememag.com/hip-hop/consequence/
http://schememag.com/hip-hop/sean-kingston-time-travellin/
http://schememag.com/daily-news/zuhkan-bey-risky-business/
http://schememag.com/daily-news/jperiod-mixtape-classics/
http://schememag.com/daily-news/u-n-i-the-other-cali/
http://schememag.com/fresh/jeremy-weisfied-deep-crates-part-ii/
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Monday, July 02, 2007

I need help & Thank you Bmore....Two Postings in 1

I think I need professional help, I think I need to go to therapy. Partly, because I feel as if I need someone to talk to, but also because I have a lot of unresolved issues within myself that I think are impairing my relationships with others. For instance, I feel like I am emotionally dead. Doesn’t that sound dramatic, maybe not dead but dormant because I don’t really feel anything anymore. I remember a time when I used to be truly happy, and could laugh with abandonment, cry one of those good cries that make you fall asleep afterwards, or just got excited when a guy called when he said he did. Now I just don’t feel anything, maybe I have been through so much that I have used closing my emotions as a defense mechanism.

But besides that, I keep most people at bay, giving them the illusion that they know me. I can talk about anything I’m going through no matter how personal with anyone, and never feel close to any of them. Maybe I need professional help, I will be exploring the professional help over the summer. I know that there are places where one can go to receive free treatment but a lot of the services that are free are not really the best out there. Plus for good service that means that I would have to pay last time I checked a good psychotherapist costs about 90 an hour. I don’t know how much the health coverage covers as, something else to look into.

Just my thoughts

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So its been nearly seven months since my move to Baltimore, and its been a mixed bag. Granted I have accomplished a goal that I set for myself, put down roots literally (i.e. my garden), been social with my neighbors, and even recommended my real estate agent to one of the investors I have met. Cool but I’m still pretty detached from Baltimore, I really don’t know anyone here, I don’t go out to any of the festivities, and I rarely go to Druid Hill Park which is literally a block away from my house. Part of the blame is that I work in DC, so I really don’t meet people who live in Baltimore. But that’s merely an excuse, hell the real reason why is pretty much I don’t care to meet people. On a not so deep level I am more than happy living a solitary life, at times it gets lonely and being an hour or more from people seems to be a nuisance but for the most part I am content.

Unlike in DC when I felt obligated to go out meet people and take advantage of all that DC has to offer with Baltimore I don’t feel that drive at all. The only organization that I am interested in joining in Baltimore is the neighborhood or block association. The reasoning behind that is, I want know what is going on, and to have a say on any economic development opportunities that my neighborhood can be apart of.

Maybe its me maturing, or maybe its depression, but I just really don’t give a fuck. I’m good, I know that Baltimore is not the end of the road for me I goal is to live in NYC after I get my masters. So Baltimore is serving its purpose, a place to lay my head.

Thank you Baltimore.

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